Going Dark

Dear readers, I haven’t posted recently because I’ve been keeping a deathwatch for my dear and lovely husband. It has been a strange, disorienting time, with night turned into day, and sorrow alleviated by funny and affectionate stories about him.

Howard died this morning, holding my hand, in blessed peace at the end of a long and difficult journey. It’s rare for me to be lost for words but today I am, so my blog page is going dark for a while. I’ll be back, of course.

Here is my man in happier, healthier times. Already I hear him whisper, ‘Seriously, Laurie? Is that the best picture you could find?’


  1. Jane on May 19, 2020 at 1:36 pm

    Deepest condolences and sympathy for your loss, Laurie.

  2. Patricia on May 20, 2020 at 4:50 am

    Hard to know what to say, just sending love x

  3. Liz pearce on May 20, 2020 at 9:03 am

    I am so sorry for your loss thinking about you all x

  4. Jenny Young on May 20, 2020 at 12:55 pm

    Oh Laurie, I was so sad to read this. I feel for you at this time of grieving. Your books have always brought the sunshine into my life and I know that one day the sun will shine on you again. Let the love of others comfort you.

  5. Lou on May 20, 2020 at 6:02 pm

    That is very sad. I’m so sorry, Laurie.

  6. Margaret on May 20, 2020 at 11:59 pm

    I loved reading about your adventures together in Venice. My deepest sympathy at this time.

  7. Helen on May 21, 2020 at 7:52 am

    So sorry to hear it, Laurie. And glad that you were with him and that he had a happy, peaceful death. Soon you will be able to take comfort in all the happy times you shared.

  8. Penny on May 22, 2020 at 5:23 am

    So very sorry to hear of your loss Laurie. Love and hugs.

  9. Caitriona Garrahy on May 25, 2020 at 10:22 am

    Sending condolences on your loss Laurie. I am one of your biggest fans, only learned of your bereavement when I went looking for follow up to Dr.Dan’s Casebook.. … I have just sent the latter to my daughter Bernadette who is by coincidence an A/E consultant in Russell Hall in Dudley. She will enjoy it I know . Renewed sympathy. May Howard rest in peace.

  10. Linda F on May 26, 2020 at 3:28 am

    So sorry to hear this. My condolences to you and the family. Love to you all.

  11. Jo Maddox on May 27, 2020 at 1:01 pm

    So very, very sad for you Laurie. You were there in his last days. Remember Venice and your love. I’ve just rerereread The Future Homemakers of America and am half way through Early Birds once again. Awful to think when I am enjoying your humour you are going through a dreadful time. XX Jo Maddox with love

  12. Nuala Barnes on January 3, 2021 at 3:43 pm

    I have only just read your article on putting your husband into a Nursing Home , so have had to fast forward to catch up. I am so very sorry to read that your beloved husband has passed. My deepest condolences.
    Your journey seems to have mirrored mine, in some respects, so I had to just say that that article put much into perspective as I, too, have just had to put my husband into a Home and the guilt is unbearable. Does it ever end? 😔
    But I thank you for your words. They will sustain me through the awful path ahead.

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